"Reason To Believe"

oh sweet lungs don't fail me now
your burning has turned into fear
drills me in my every step, i'm moving quick but you're always on my heels
just one more breath, i beg you please
just one more step, my knees are weak
my heart is sturdy but it needs you to survive
my heart is sturdy but it needs you...

breathe, don't you wanna breathe
i know that you are strong enough to handle what i need
my capillaries scream, there's nothing left to feed on
my body needs a reason to cross that line
will you carry me there one more time?

steady lungs, don't fail me now
i feel you bursting but you won't let me die
fill me up with every stepi'm feeling sick, but i'm leaving it behind
just one long breath i beg you please
just one more step you are not weak
my legs are sturdy but they need you to survive
my heart is sturdy but i need you...breathe, don't you wanna breathe
i know that you are strong enough to handle what i need
my capillaries scream, there's nothing left to feed on
my body needs a reason to cross that line
will you carry me there once more?

breathe, don't you wanna breathe
i know that you are strong enough to handle what i need
my capillaries scream, there's nothing left to feed on
my body needs a reason to cross that line
will you carry me there one more time?

i have reason to believe that i have victories to taste
i can feel them on my teeth, upon my lips and in my chest
i can roll them on my tongue, they are more subtle than defeat
i feel the tension in my lungs and every move is filled by my resolve to
breathe, don't you wanna breathe
i know that you are strong enough to handle what i need
my capillaries scream, there's nothing left to feed on
my body needs a reason to cross that line
will you carry me there one more time?

~Dashboard Confessional

i don't control you. but why can't in return, i get sense of security from you? must i be controlling and possessive in order to feel secure? must i state some ground rules like the rest of the girls to avoid future problems? must i tell you every bloody "what not to do" thing? i've asked around bout this and it is you they say. you're problem. you hide, you run, you drag shits and leave me to clean the mess up. then you shit again and again after that. then you wait for me to detect the trails of shit you left behind so i could clean it up. the thing is i don't have to detect where's the shit... ppl tell me where to go to find that fucking dunk of yours so i could do stg about it because they pity me for being so god damn stupid. and i did... i swear i tried... but then you will just shit again in future. it's like a habit. how can i kill a habit? but no matter what... i know i still love you deeply.