I've been up at 8 am and slept at 4am/5am for the pass 2 weeks doing my assignment slowly. I always rush my homework and this is my very very first time i started my assignments early, doing it at a slow pace and finally i managed to finish...
1. CAD drawing a week before submission
2. Research and analysis folder a day before submission

But i was so nervous a day before submission, i couldn't sleep so i stayed till the next morning watching drama and then got ready for the 930 class and the moment the class was over, i just headed to the submission room and just passed up the damn folders so i won't have to look at it again and again and again and get some sleep.

Dinner at Chiquitos to celebrate Joyce's birthday. Ate nachos for starters and then the large portion of the steak fajitas wasn't a problem at all. I still can eat dessert but i controlled my desire so i won't over eat. Got home at 1230am > drank vodka > knock myself out to sleep.

Now... here i am.. woke up at 3.30pm and ordered Domino's pizza because i can't move a muscle and don't have any motivation to cook or go Tesco to stock up on food supplies.

And pizza is here!
Bye!

Paradox

It starts to get dark at 4.30pm. Sigh. I'm so unhappy today. My thoughts are all over. Sometimes i wonder i should follow the heart or to do what's right. If i do what is right, i'll be in pain. If i follow my my heart, i'll cause pain. Either way it will never be a good ending. Over here in Salford, i have more time to focus and think carefully about what i want, what i need to do, where i wanna go & who i wanna be. I wanna be ordinary. A less complex person. An interior designer who loves her job and travel around for vacation. No big dreams. No big cash. No fancy life. Just ordinary. Sometimes i lose my answers.

I don't have class today. But i was up at 7am - lying in bed for 2 hours staring at the ceiling. Flashing back everything that i've been through for the past 2 years. It's not easy to let go of mommy. I still think about her most of the time. When i'm here, i think about her more often. I haven't move on. Maybe i don't want to. Thought about my relationship - where is it going? I'll like to hold your hand and walk with you but i can't.
I'm tired of being a melancholic person. I really am.

I have tutorial session tomorrow and i really like my design. Hopefully i score for this. Gonna get back to my drawings.

Found a way to keep in touch with Cantonese language. TVB drama series. The plot is always the same. But it's a way to improve my language. Haven't been speaking much Cantonese since i got here. Dah la my Cantonese sucks and i speak like ang moh. Now standard drop. Jeffrey, Hendrie and Eric sure will tease at me when i come home.

"yat lou cho yeh, yat lou dai hei".
*Has always been a habit since young. That's how i score straight A's for SPM & PMR.*

Sigh... It's 1.47am and i've just completed reading about Floor System. Today's Nerd Day.- stayed at home the whole day researching and gathering information for my Architectural Techonology and Spatial Design subject. I've promised ppl i'll upload pictures of Manchester but i'm still sorting out photos. So let's skip to my gliding experience!

So 2 weeks ago, i went to Bowland Forest for flying lessons on a Saturday!! Weather was a little gloomy but it was still okay to fly. I've joined the Gliding Club and i think i'm gonna enjoy myself a lot learning about gliding. Though i need to take quite a number of lessons to actually be qualified to fly solo but it's still fun to be able to take control for a short moment while i'm up in the air. Launching was scary because you're sitting in front and watching yrself being elevated scares the shit out of me but once you're up there... the view is gorgeous!!!

p/s: drove a small tractor too! aiseh..it's been a while since i've drove a stick.

My first day of class is 9.30 am - Architectural Technology. You study about building structure and materials. I did learn that from college but i remembered i had this lecturer who didn't care if anyone listen to her in class. So i didn't really pay much attention to it. But thanks to my work experience i know i must really brush up my architecture knowledge so i can understand/speak the same language as the architects when i go back to work again.
I'm excited! I'm excited about student life - again. So much of information to absorb in just 2 hours so much of research to do. I hope i could get a part-time job at an interior firm or architect firm but chances are slim because of the recession.
I almost fell asleep after an hour of lecturer because i didn't have my morning coffee. When my lecturer gave a 10 minutes break, i ran to the Adelphi Building to the cafe and bought yogurt and cappuccino. I forgot how much i love yogurt.
Tonight i cooked the remaining pasta in tomatoes & mascarpone sauce and baked salmon (my 1st time baking salmon). I'm not bad at cooking. Another creative side of me that i would love to explore. =)

This is my walk home from my campus.

red = chinese = sepet

I presume it's gonna be a rainy day...

7°c outside. It's cloudy and I'm so cold!!

Anyway got up early this morning. Can't go back to sleep so i made a healthy breakfast.
Turkey ham sandwich & coffeeeeeee....

9.58 am - glooomy

It's 15 degrees outside but with this rain and strong wind. I bet my bones will freeze while waiting for the bus. I forced myself to shower this morning and god my knees couldn't stop shaking when i got out of the shower. Help!!

Gonna go out to stock up food supplies. Tonight i'll be making fruit salad for the Malaysian gang living downstairs. Hopefully the weather will be alright later because i plan to shop for winter wear. I need to!!! Wish me luck.

I don't like cold weather.

I feel puffy.

ps: thanks to my brother, Chris Dorman songs are my new morning tunes.