Tuesday, April 26, 2011

A lost sheep in a Russian Orthodox Church during Easter Sunday

Finished work on Sunday 12.30am and rushed to The "Pokrov" (Intercession of the Holy Virgin Russian Orthodox Church) for the Pascha and was there till 5am only because I had to leave and get some sleep before I started work at 12pm. This parish celebrated the Pascha starting from Holy Saturday (9pm) till Easter Sunday (10am -11am). Can't believe I stood for 3 hours straight! Of course my feet were killing me. This is my very first time in a Russian Orthodox church and I felt very very lost at first when I got there. First I'm the only Asian and secondly, I speak NO RUSSIAN. The service was conducted in Russian of course but thanks to my Brother's quick 15 minutes lesson on skype, I somewhat managed to survive that night. I did remember to cross from RIGHT TO LEFT and bow a little and make sure my scarf was covering my head. So much of bowing that night. I don't know if I would go back there again because almost no one speaks English except for very few people but it was a great experience.

A residential house converted into a church.

The priest giving a speech during the feast.

Monday, April 18, 2011

A Good Life.

Many associate doing good with happiness. Doing good not necessary makes you happy. There are times when we struggle between doing good and being happy.

If you do not understand this, meaning you're constantly doing things that makes you happy without thinking whether it's good or bad. To some people, not getting what you want or desire is so foreign and difficult to understand.

Example of a scenario. It's can be a ridiculous example but it proves how one can be very ignorant.

I want to eat egg tarts but I can't because I promise to stay away from egg tarts.

Here's the argument:

"Then just eat it! Why torture yourself? It's just egg tart. How much harm can it do?"

"But... I want to stay away from it. It's an act of discipline. Abstinence from the tartttt."

"But it's just an egg tart. Look at you, you're so desperate for it because you cannot have it. Why not just eat the damn tart so you can be happy!"

"I want to but I won't. For now."

"You're being ridiculous."

Everyone is selfish in their own ways and I don't expect everyone to understand my act. But I do appreciate if one actually stop and think about it. You don't have to perform it you just have to understand the rationale behind it.

Sometimes a little sacrifice can do a lot. Maybe I should read Aristotle's ethics and moral theories to have a better understanding of A Good Life.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

This week I met a man who has a brain tumour and he's on heavy medication to keep himself alive. When he has a terrible pain in the head, he'll pop his medication and that's when he's a little on the mental side but other days he's fine and wants to help around in the centre. He was then given the task to make these simple costumes with bedsheets for an upcoming play. I sat at a corner looking at him making the costumes for and I couldn't help but teared in the washroom later because I don't think I can be working with someone whom I know may leave me anytime. We don't speak because he's from Eastern Europe and he speaks very little English. I left the centre immediately because I don't think I can control my emotions on that day.

Sometimes I feel so useless because I cannot separate these feelings from work. I know I would see him soon this week and look forward to all the costumes he made. Sheesh.. writing this post is watering up my eyes.

Can't wait for Easter Sunday to come. No because I can't wait to eat meat but I just wanna celebrate my very fist "sort of" successful Lent. I hate to admit it but I did eat chocolates. =( But no egg tarts definitely.

I was bored for 10 minutes and said to myself, "hey why not camwhore a little since I have red lipstick on."

I cut my own fringe 2 weeks ago. That's the week I was working on my Professional Design 3 and I was so stressed out and decided to take the scissors and chop-chop! Ugh.. my fringe was so horrible and I was wearing a hat to cover my horrible mistake. My friends laughed of course but now the length is alright to walk in public. Still not liking it but hey, what's done is done.

Back to assignments.

(The chinese character is Kuan = Jinn)

Sunday, April 10, 2011

I'm officially a Chinese girl working in a Chinese take out place. I find this so bloody hilarious when I came back from work today. Anyway, I'm so way behind my final work and I really need to catch up!! One more month to my final design deadline. Yikes! I'm so slow in model-making and I'm so worried!!

This was the model that I've did pretty "cincai" for my Gallery Cafe submission. My cutting skills are degrading.