I don't feel good. I think i can never be at that place and be okay. Being there just makes me uncomfortable and vulnerable after that. People go there to seek spiritual comfort, I will alway end up being depress and cry to sleep. I keep telling myself i'm strong but i doubt that some times. I have to force myself to be okay. I have to. If i don't, how can i go on with my everyday life? Travelling has made me wiser and strengthen certain characteristic in me.

But when can this pain, this heavy weight i feel in my chest go away?
Or at least it could fade bit by bit.


I like seeing this out my window.